Wednesday, 30 June 2010
Jamming with Adrienne
Adrienne is great, tonight i spent the evening jamming and writing new songs with her. its a whole lot of fun. im pretty chuffed shes my sister, we can make music when ever we want and its just great having someone who gets my vibe so easily.. ten points Ads!!Had band practice last night too... fantastic..i love music...
Tear down the house by The Avett Brothers
Tear down the house
That I grew up in
I'll never be the same again
Take everything that I’ve collected
And throw it in a pile
Bulldoze the woods
That I ran through
Carry the pictures of me and you
I have no memory of who I once was
And I don't remember your name
Park the old car
That I love the best
(The) inspections due and it won’t pass the test
It’s funny how I have to put it to rest
And how one day…I will join it
I remember crying over you
And I don't mean like a couple of tears
And then I'm blue
I’m talkin’ about collapsing
And screaming at the moon
But I'm a better man
For having gone through it
Yes, I'm a better man
For having gone through…
Ever since I learned how to curse
I’ve been using those sorry old words
But, I’m talkin’ to these children
And I’m keeping it clean
I don’t need those words
To say what I mean
No, I don’t need those words
To say what I mean
Tear down the house
That I grew up in
I'll never be the same again
Take everything that I used to own
And burn it in a pile
And, bulldoze the woods
That I ran through
Carry the pictures of me and you
I have no memory of who I once was
And I don't remember your name
That I grew up in
I'll never be the same again
Take everything that I’ve collected
And throw it in a pile
Bulldoze the woods
That I ran through
Carry the pictures of me and you
I have no memory of who I once was
And I don't remember your name
Park the old car
That I love the best
(The) inspections due and it won’t pass the test
It’s funny how I have to put it to rest
And how one day…I will join it
I remember crying over you
And I don't mean like a couple of tears
And then I'm blue
I’m talkin’ about collapsing
And screaming at the moon
But I'm a better man
For having gone through it
Yes, I'm a better man
For having gone through…
Ever since I learned how to curse
I’ve been using those sorry old words
But, I’m talkin’ to these children
And I’m keeping it clean
I don’t need those words
To say what I mean
No, I don’t need those words
To say what I mean
Tear down the house
That I grew up in
I'll never be the same again
Take everything that I used to own
And burn it in a pile
And, bulldoze the woods
That I ran through
Carry the pictures of me and you
I have no memory of who I once was
And I don't remember your name
"wearing make-up is like lying all the time"
i get anxious that my words on this blog will be set in stone, people might read them and think certain things about me.. but at the end of day i am just a simple human really... very faulted and its ok to show that side of me right, it would be a lie to show anything else surely.
tonight at a bar with friends we discussed girls wearing make-up. their point was that wearing make-up is like lying all the time. i felt it strange that i always wear make-up and im ok with people only knowing only that side to me.. but i guess the temptation of easily making myself better for the culture i live in is just too luring... everyone wants to be their best right?!
i do think people should just decide what they want to be and be it. not feel swayed by others. people are most beautiful, in my opinion when they shine their individual soul. we're all so different, there is so much variety, surely its best if we dont all do the same thing...then the diversity can teach us so much more..
still i dont even know if i can take my own advice... i wanna be loved like the next person, and sadly i feel that a large factor in my lovability is in my appearance..will i ever escape that... i dont know...maybe one day a man might look upon my natural face and call me beautiful, but alas, it is likely that if ever i was lucky enough to be in that situation, i wouldnt believe him anyway..society really mucks us up huh, or maybe i should be stronger, but it would be nice anyway. its peoples soul isnt it, that what matters in the end right...
i think that is what is important overall.. without being unrealistic, it is that what matters...i did this painting in a while ago but maybe is expresses just a little bit of how i feel..
its a shame because i do see the exquisite beauty in everyone around me and i can appreciate everyone im around, but when it comes to myself there isnt much room at all...perhaps i need to work on that..
tonight at a bar with friends we discussed girls wearing make-up. their point was that wearing make-up is like lying all the time. i felt it strange that i always wear make-up and im ok with people only knowing only that side to me.. but i guess the temptation of easily making myself better for the culture i live in is just too luring... everyone wants to be their best right?!
i do think people should just decide what they want to be and be it. not feel swayed by others. people are most beautiful, in my opinion when they shine their individual soul. we're all so different, there is so much variety, surely its best if we dont all do the same thing...then the diversity can teach us so much more..
still i dont even know if i can take my own advice... i wanna be loved like the next person, and sadly i feel that a large factor in my lovability is in my appearance..will i ever escape that... i dont know...maybe one day a man might look upon my natural face and call me beautiful, but alas, it is likely that if ever i was lucky enough to be in that situation, i wouldnt believe him anyway..society really mucks us up huh, or maybe i should be stronger, but it would be nice anyway. its peoples soul isnt it, that what matters in the end right...
Johnny cash once said he was grateful that God didnt make him ugly, and he made a point of saying not physically ugly, what he meant was that he was thankful that he was not ugly in spirit...
i think that is what is important overall.. without being unrealistic, it is that what matters...i did this painting in a while ago but maybe is expresses just a little bit of how i feel..
its a shame because i do see the exquisite beauty in everyone around me and i can appreciate everyone im around, but when it comes to myself there isnt much room at all...perhaps i need to work on that..
Monday, 28 June 2010
New Blood Art
the lovely Sarah Ryan from New Blood Art got in touch with me after my degree show and offered me a page on the site, here it is, hope you like the work! its nice to have the opportuinty to start selling my work to a wider market, thanks Sarah!
Original Art Online: - View Artwork
Original Art Online: - View Artwork
searching for the meaning of 5
why does my bed never call me
sleep beckons but i stall you see
im scared
not of the monsters under my bed
but the thoughts in my head
they circle around and tie me up
i am found then
running over
why love has drowned
and i am left over
i still hear the sound
and taste it on my lips
but my feet are on the ground
i know the season has moved out
out of winter the sun is so proud
and i am the breeze
learning to blow through time
russling the leaves
searching for the meaning of 5
sleep beckons but i stall you see
im scared
not of the monsters under my bed
but the thoughts in my head
they circle around and tie me up
i am found then
running over
why love has drowned
and i am left over
i still hear the sound
and taste it on my lips
but my feet are on the ground
i know the season has moved out
out of winter the sun is so proud
and i am the breeze
learning to blow through time
russling the leaves
searching for the meaning of 5
Sunday, 27 June 2010
Stevie Wonder LIVE!
ok one of my life goals from a child, which has been held til now, has been to see Stevie wonder play live.....tick!!!
yesterday i saw him at Hyde park in the most fantastic line up- Mary, Mary, Corrine Bailey Rea, James Morrison and Jameriquoi.
i actually cannot believe how incredible Stevie was! my cheeks were in agony because i was smiling so hard!!! wow that man is talented! he inspires me beyond words. what i love about him is how humble he is, he claims nothing for himself and praises God for all his blessing...
i once heard Stevie say at Michael Jackson's funeral that not much makes sense and hurt happens but still, in all that 'God is good', in the face of such a horrible tide he still maintained that God is good and i think that is awesome.
not to mention his songs! each once provokes a dance in my heart like no other musician has done before [bar Michael Jackson]...its understandable how they were such good friends. Stevie did a tribute to him too, playing 'human nature' on harmonica..beautiful but heartrenchingly sad..
as a singer i really want to give as much as i see Stevie give out... the honesty and soul that pours out of that man is off the scale and if i could even manage a bit of that id be happy. i think it comes from knowing God... its perhaps not just the Stevie talent that makes Mr Wonder that amazing but the God flowing through him that fills my heart and about 100,000 others hearts in that stadium last night, with such a hopeful light.
the other cats that played were amazing too; Mary, Mary had some seriously powerful voices going on, Bailey Rae was sweet and beautiful, Morrison was energetic and soulful and Jameriquoi had some awesome moves, not to mention one of the tightest bands.
all in all and unbelievable day....
off to lunch with my grandparents and cousins now... cant wait..i do love my family so much.
yesterday i saw him at Hyde park in the most fantastic line up- Mary, Mary, Corrine Bailey Rea, James Morrison and Jameriquoi.
i actually cannot believe how incredible Stevie was! my cheeks were in agony because i was smiling so hard!!! wow that man is talented! he inspires me beyond words. what i love about him is how humble he is, he claims nothing for himself and praises God for all his blessing...
i once heard Stevie say at Michael Jackson's funeral that not much makes sense and hurt happens but still, in all that 'God is good', in the face of such a horrible tide he still maintained that God is good and i think that is awesome.
not to mention his songs! each once provokes a dance in my heart like no other musician has done before [bar Michael Jackson]...its understandable how they were such good friends. Stevie did a tribute to him too, playing 'human nature' on harmonica..beautiful but heartrenchingly sad..
as a singer i really want to give as much as i see Stevie give out... the honesty and soul that pours out of that man is off the scale and if i could even manage a bit of that id be happy. i think it comes from knowing God... its perhaps not just the Stevie talent that makes Mr Wonder that amazing but the God flowing through him that fills my heart and about 100,000 others hearts in that stadium last night, with such a hopeful light.
the other cats that played were amazing too; Mary, Mary had some seriously powerful voices going on, Bailey Rae was sweet and beautiful, Morrison was energetic and soulful and Jameriquoi had some awesome moves, not to mention one of the tightest bands.
all in all and unbelievable day....
off to lunch with my grandparents and cousins now... cant wait..i do love my family so much.
Friday, 25 June 2010
erm is tea in a glass wrong?
its only when i reached for my tea in a glass that i realised why people rarely use glasses for hot beverages...it was not the risk of glass breaking, oh no, it was the........no handle factor, ok blindingly obvious now, hindsight is a swine! very true...not just in terms of lack of handles..
ive had a difficult day today, time passes by so quickly sometimes and situations can completely change without you doing a thing. this just leaves me feeling pretty out of control most of the time, but occasionally it catches the back of your throat and you just have to swallow...like i said earlier, im not good with change...and iv had to deal with that a lot today...
i watch a bug fly around and get drawn into a nearby light and it makes me think its a visualisation for life, i often find myself searching for answers and finding them in my immediate surroundings, then i often think this is how God talks to me...te bug and the light this time seems to talk of how i am always attracted to things that arent good for me, and i persistently go them, over and over again...
despite all of my doubts in myself of late days i am holding to this awesome quote by Mother Teresa “In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love.”
ive had a difficult day today, time passes by so quickly sometimes and situations can completely change without you doing a thing. this just leaves me feeling pretty out of control most of the time, but occasionally it catches the back of your throat and you just have to swallow...like i said earlier, im not good with change...and iv had to deal with that a lot today...
i watch a bug fly around and get drawn into a nearby light and it makes me think its a visualisation for life, i often find myself searching for answers and finding them in my immediate surroundings, then i often think this is how God talks to me...te bug and the light this time seems to talk of how i am always attracted to things that arent good for me, and i persistently go them, over and over again...
despite all of my doubts in myself of late days i am holding to this awesome quote by Mother Teresa “In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love.”
Thursday, 24 June 2010
so im drinking horlicks, watching 'leatherheads' on tv and ogling at the 1930s outfits Renee wears..
just come back from drinks at the black boy with some fine art school legends, plus king of legends, Stephen cooper!! thanks for being a great tutor cooper!!
on top of this i just broke into my own home since i left my keys at home...sound fairly interesting though right? well what if i told you i climbed into the window on the second floor! lol of my house! it was exciting, but probably pretty stupid. It was sweet fun having drinks with this talented lot but it also had the bitter ring in the air that sang soon i wont be seeing any of these people on a regular basis... mmm i struggle with change.. and i will miss these amazing friend.
i also quite amusingly fell asleep writing this.. mmm... bed time again i think.. the moon is staring at me and hes calling me to lay and rest.
today was
just come back from drinks at the black boy with some fine art school legends, plus king of legends, Stephen cooper!! thanks for being a great tutor cooper!!
on top of this i just broke into my own home since i left my keys at home...sound fairly interesting though right? well what if i told you i climbed into the window on the second floor! lol of my house! it was exciting, but probably pretty stupid. It was sweet fun having drinks with this talented lot but it also had the bitter ring in the air that sang soon i wont be seeing any of these people on a regular basis... mmm i struggle with change.. and i will miss these amazing friend.
i also quite amusingly fell asleep writing this.. mmm... bed time again i think.. the moon is staring at me and hes calling me to lay and rest.
today was
Wednesday, 23 June 2010
Hello!
hello new blog page,
i have just been inspired to set up this blog page. iv done so as a creative release and a place to be honest. it seems a little strange but at the same time ,very freeing. i am typing to effectively no-one and simultaneously the whole world....bizarre...
let me introduce myself.....
as of yet i am an artist, a singer, a laughter, a prayer, a poet, petrified, amazed and exhilarated at life all at the same time- all of the time, a painter, a sunset watcher, a rain stroller, a taste savourer, a star watcher and a music listener...
im always adding to the list.... recently the ones that i want to add to the list are... a guitar player, a constant forgiver, and a happy in the face of stress pursuer, a patience and unconditional lover, and a jive dancer.... im working on those ones, they are very tricky...
so it pretty late, in fact in 2.56am and im off to chase some stars but i will be back soon, writing out my heart and working through some of my thoughts in my head...
goodnight world.
i have just been inspired to set up this blog page. iv done so as a creative release and a place to be honest. it seems a little strange but at the same time ,very freeing. i am typing to effectively no-one and simultaneously the whole world....bizarre...
let me introduce myself.....
as of yet i am an artist, a singer, a laughter, a prayer, a poet, petrified, amazed and exhilarated at life all at the same time- all of the time, a painter, a sunset watcher, a rain stroller, a taste savourer, a star watcher and a music listener...
im always adding to the list.... recently the ones that i want to add to the list are... a guitar player, a constant forgiver, and a happy in the face of stress pursuer, a patience and unconditional lover, and a jive dancer.... im working on those ones, they are very tricky...
so it pretty late, in fact in 2.56am and im off to chase some stars but i will be back soon, writing out my heart and working through some of my thoughts in my head...
goodnight world.
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